Assalamualaikum Ni hao Konnichiwa,
Sedih jadi sebab tu nak menaip.
No body care about me.
I am just an invisible and helper at anytime.
My life is to serve allah, and continue living as a human and servant.
Life is a test.
When i dont like to talk to people, people come closer, one by one.
When i prefer to talk to people, people go away and not available.
I just hate people. I hate receive any help from people. Let me suffer and die alone.
The feeling of pretending to be stronger when inside is crying for help.
Since i am an adult, a mother, i should just continue to be strong and just crying when im overwhelmed.
Let other feel happy when they know i am weak.
Some people feel stronger and satisfied and happy when know other person in disaster.
I just want to do my own thing, hoping i wont do any big sin so that able to enter paradise in the Hereafter.
Life is so not pleasurable for me.
Im crying.
Im tired.
Its okay. Just stay quiet, dont chase people, dont chase attention.
Just mind my own business.
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